down 58 lbs... yes, still feel like it should be more but i lost 4.5 lbs last week after being in a stall for a few weeks and I am in deep ketosis right now...So hopefully I will be at 60-65 lbs by the end of my 12th week...Ive seen alot of 70 -75 lbs around month 3...so idk... But i will say that I now fit into shirts i have been dying to wear again...(see new pics) and that did make me smile=)...yell out actually=)...and pants too... I  lost 80 lbs last year and did alot of retail therapy.... then gained it ALL back in a 6 month period of time right before surgery....devastating... but now i have a closet full of clothes to fit in to...cant wait til they are all way too big...sigh*
so when i hit that weight I was last year, then I will feel like I've done something!... im nuts... but i guess the way i feel is pretty normal around these parts=)..thanks to my oh fam for letting me know i am not alone... =)the saga continues

ok, so I am officially 6 weeks out ...down 43 lbs ...and sort of freaking out that i am not losing fast enough...I feel like I have been in a stall for weeks although i have lost a few lbs here and there... Why does it feel like it is not going to come off? I am sure i am not alone in this irrational thinking but I have a number in my head... That number is 262 and it was my weight last year at this time when i was losing weight on Lindora...and really, until i hit that number, i wont feel like i have lost a thing...WWHY? because, I worked extremely hard to lose it..and then to gain it back, yes, I said it...I had to have worked really hard to gain it all back in 6 f-ing months!... so.. i want that 36 lbs off today!!! alas... its just the addict in me talking...instant gratification... that is what i desire... but patience is what i am in need of!..So what did i do today? I got my ass up and took a walk...ashamed to admit that it was my first attempt in 6 weeks...but nevertheless I did it...and I will do it again tomorrow...and the next day...and just take this thing one day at a time....Ahhhh
thank you for letting me share=)
much love
Rene'

and i am 40 lbs down!....I cant believe how good I feel... I have been working 12 hr days ugh and so my only complaint is pure exhaustion when i get home.....gotta find a new job...but i need the insurance...atleast for the next 6 months... anyway...im tired...but i must confess the i think i might be gettin my SEXY BACK! ...it doesnt take much ...let me get under 3oo and im all about it lol..whatever... I am delirious as i type this...15 min left of a long ass day for me... and I just wanted to say that I LOVE MY RNY!!!
and all of you out there..my support.
much love
Rene'

Oct 3rd will I will be a month out...i havent posted lately because my computer took a shit...I am going back to work on Wed the 1st...My current weight loss is 33lbs and it hasnt even been a month!..I feel really good... I believe I have experienced a little "dumpimg syndrome but it does not include vomiting... I was dying for some chicken and took 1 bite nd experienced a wave of pain for aabout 20 minutes...other than that I have tolerated alot of things nicely... I still consider my recovery really smooth and am so grateful for this tool....
much love rene
p.s. 1 month photos to follow