Stay Positive !!!!!!

Okay, so I bought a new pair of jeans today and guess what.....SIZE 18 !
Alright, so they are stretch, but who cares, I had a heck of a time getting a size 26 to stretch to fit me at one time.
I am down 56 lbs and am really starting to feel it.
I went to Sport Check to buy a new pair of cross trainers for the gym today and had a couple of real "moments."   First off, I was able to put the shoes on and actually reach down to tie them up without having to stop breathing.  Then, I put a pair of shoes on and as I was walking around the store to see how they felt, I found myself looking in a mirror.....I stopped and said, "is that me?"  I actually walked closer to see if I still looked that good closer up.  Guess what, it was ME, and I felt great looking at myself.  I saw HOPE !  So then I decided to really try out the shoes and I took a little jog around the shoe department.  YES, ME JOGGING !  ha ha ha
I can't wait to get back to the gym tomorrow where I can really try a little jogging on the treadmill !
I FEEL GREAT TODAY !!!!!

I figure it is about time that I publish some WOW moments.

1.  Wearing a size medium cotton ginny plus top as opposed to extra large.

2.  Wearing a size 1X jacket or top in Penningtons as opposed to 4X.

3.  Wearing a size 22 pant in Penningtons as opposed to 26 (and I wouldn't buy 22 cause they were a little loose, but 20 was a little too tight).

4.  The summer clothes that I couldn't have sqeezed into this summer if my life depended on it are all way too big now.

5.  I actually crossed my legs this weekend !

6.  I had to move the seat forward on my truck after Fraser drove it (I always had to move it back) AND I left the steering wheel down where he has it and my legs fit underneath !

7.  I went to a party where there was a LOT of good munchie food and I just had a small taste of some things and was completely satisfied.

8.  And finally, the last one has to do with sex so we won't go there (but Fraser and I both know, our little secret !!)

They are happening fast and furious now, these little wows.  I am now down 54 lbs as of this morning !

I officially hit 50 lbs gone as of this morning !  50 frickin lbs !  OMG !!!!!  This means I am 1/3 of the way there.  I'm so excited, and I just can't hide it ! 
I LOOOOOOVE MY RNY !

Whew - what a cleaning out today.  Five really good bowel movements.  I feel so much better.
Had the gastroscopy on Friday, good news/bad news.  No stricture, no hernia, no obstruction.....verdict - ULCER !
How weird is that.  It does however, explain everything.  I was bunged up because I was not eating or drinking enough because it hurt too much to eat and drink, plus I was vomitting so much that it was easier not to eat.
I am on a quadruple dose of losec, 40 mg 2 x per day.  That will hopefully reverse the ulcer.
Eating was already easier today.  I have made sure to get in my full litre and a half of water for the last two days and I am sure that will help BIGTIME !
Now, let's see that weight start to fall off again.
I am down 49 lbs as of today and was actually able to get into an x-large off the rack (vest).  I didn't buy it, but it was nice that it fit.

I went to see my family Dr. for an unrelated matter on Nov. 5th.  I happened to mention that I was constipated, throwing up alot and really not feeling great.  He sent me for an x-ray.  Since I had a BM the next day (small, watery and gross, but a BM all the same), I figured, everything was fine.
I just got the results on last night.  X-ray showed "dilated loops on the small bowel measuring 42 mm, possible imcomplete obstruction."  Advice from Dr, see surgeon right away.  Since I was still having issues, and the vomitting has increased to the point where it really hurt (spent two hours puking last night, so off to see Dr. Huynh I went today.
He looked at the x-rays, asked me some questions and low and behold he booked me in for a gastroscopy and possible dilation for this Friday.  If he finds anything else needs to be done, it will be booked for a later date.
Why am I more nervous about this than I was about the actual RNY ?
I have definitely NOT been getting in enough protein, water or just plain food period, then when I do manage to eat something, I puke most of it up.  Since I saw him on October 14, I have only lost 6 lbs.  THAT SUCKS !  He says not to worry about it yet, to wait and see what Friday brings and we will go from there.
I still do not regret my decision, but am frustrated.