How time flies. . . on July 25, 2008 7:37 am
Wow!!! I cannot believe that it's been over a year now since my surgery. What a year of changes it's been ~ both physically and mentally!!! As of today, I have lost a total of 133 lbs!!! How awesome is that???? The sad part of that is that I still see myself as weighing 305 lbs. Don't know if that will ever get any better. I feel great though and get wonderful compliments from people who knew me "before" and see me for the first time now so that helps a lot with my self esteem.
My personal life is going great. Scott is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He loves me unconditionally and tells me constantly how beautiful I am. We just bought a house together and I love it!! He treats me like a princess and I am so blessed to have him in my life.
Well, that's about it for now. I will try to do better about updating. I love to read about other people's journies and hope that I can be an inspiration to others too!!
Till next time. . .
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Christmas 2007 ~ a time to reflect on all the changes... on December 25, 2007 6:24 pm
Hello everyone and Merry Christmas!!! Well, I'm coming up on my 6 month "surgiversary" and thought I'd give a quick update. As of this morning, my weight is 213 lbs. That's 92 pounds down from my all time high of 305 lbs!! While that sounds so incredible to me, I really cannot see the difference. All my family and friends say that I am crazy for not being able to see it but what can I say. I just don't see it. I know that is pretty typical from what I've read on other's profiles. I really don't understand why we have such a hard time seeing what everyone else does. I still feel like I am that fat ugly girl I was before surgery and that makes me sad. I want to feel better about myself because I know what it took for me to get to this point. A lot of changes have taken place for me in 2007 and while most of them have been good, a lot of them have been stressful. So I guess all in all, it's not surprising that I am having somewhat of a difficult time dealing with everything going on in my life at this time. I'm hoping for brighter, skinnier days ahead for 2008!!!
Till next time. . .
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Well, it's been a while. . . on November 25, 2007 8:39 am
. . . since I've updated this thing so here goes!!!! I am coming up on my 5 month surgiversary and as of this morning I have lost a total of 81 lbs!!! How awesome is that!!!! As great as that has been, my life has very chaotic these past few months!!! My husband and I have seperated for good and I am starting the divorce process. Shortly after I had surgery, I had reconnected with a man I went to school with and even though neither of us was looking for a relationship beyond friendship, a higher power intervened and we fell in love. So I decided that I would pursue a relationship with him since me and my husband had been separated since 2005 and even though we remained friends and talked or saw each other almost every day, I knew that I didn't want to remain married to him. So life was going pretty good for me and then my husband was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer and everything fell apart. I felt guilty for having feelings for another man and my husband was scared and begging me to give us another try so I decided that I needed to be there for him and do the wifely thing. Well, of course that didn't work out. I was scared for him but I don't love him like a wife is supposed to love her husband and I had all these feelings for this other man that I couldn't make go away. So it became pretty ugly and I know that I hurt my husband by deciding to be with the other guy. I feel bad about that and maybe I'm selfish but I feel like I deserve happiness. If that makes me a bad person, then so be it.
Scott lives in Virginia and I was living in North Carolina and all my family was in Virginia so it just made sense to move back to Virginia. So I packed up all my worldly possessions and moved me and my son back to Virginia. So far things have gone really good for us. Brandon (my son) has adjusted so much better than I thought he would to his new school and even though he misses his friends in NC, he doesn't complain and he is making new friends here in VA. And there's always MySpace so he is able to keep in touch with his old friends. I have found a job here as an Accounts Receivable clerk with a company that I worked for before I moved to NC so that has worked out well too. Scott and I are doing really well. We are adjusting to living together trying to learn each other's quirks and ways of doing things but all in all, everything is going well. I've been busy trying to turn his bachelor pad apartment into a home for us and so far, so good!!! He is really great at letting me do what I want as far as decorating goes!! He is very opinionated and I know that all these changes haven't been real easy for him but he has been a real trooper!! I have been really blessed and hope that continues!!
Well, I guess that's about all the news I have for now. I'll try not to wait so long before I update again!!! Thanks for reading and God bless!!
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One month out ~ down 39 lbs! on August 19, 2007 7:24 pm
Hello all. This is supposed to be my one month update although it's actually been almost 6 weeks since surgery. Life has been more than hectic lately. We found out on Aug. 10th that my husband has Stage 4 colon cancer. He will be undergoing chemo treatments for 4-6 weeks and then will have surgery to remove the entire colon and rectum. The only good thing to come out of this is that we are in the process of restoring our relationship. We have many issues that still need ironing out but we have both discovered that life is too short to let petty things get in the way.
As far as my weight loss goes, I am doing o.k. I guess. As of this morning, I have lost 50 lbs!! My first big milestone. I should be thrilled but I actually don't feel much of anything right now. I guess the events of the past week have overshadowed everything. I called my PCP last week and he gave me a prescrip for some depression meds. I didn't want to do that but I know I need some help to get through this time. I wore my cherry necklace and earrings all day today even though I didn't go anywhere except the grocery store!! I am not doing well at all on getting in my protein or all my water and I falter from time to time with my vitamins. This past week has been pure hell for me emotionally and physically and I can feel my body protesting. I am determined to get back on track and stay there this week. I will be no good to my husband if I am sick and he needs me to be strong for him at this time. Sometimes I feel like I have been shattered into a million pieces and I just don't have the energy to put everything back together again. Please keep me in your prayers as I struggle just to get through each day one day at a time.
Till next time. . .
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First post op visit on August 2, 2007 7:21 pm
Hello. Today I went for my first post op visit since surgery. Their scales showed me a 19 lb loss but they used my pre op appointment which was a week before surgery as my starting weight. On my scales on the morning of surgery, I had gained 2-3 lbs from their scales weight so I guess that is about right. My scales say I've lost 23 lbs and that's what I'm going with!! Besides, I always weigh first thing in the morning and this was at around 3 p.m. on their scales so I'm thinking my scale is probably pretty close to theirs. Anywhoo, I'm sticking with mine!!!
My visit went really well. My surgeon was pleased with my progress and with how well I am healing. The only bad thing is my iron level is low so that means another supplement. I'm already so constipated that it ain't even funny and when I told him that, he said to add another Colace and some MOM if I need it. Man, I feel like a walking drug store!! But we have to do what we have to do to be healthy I guess. My nut increased my protein from 59 grams (which I thought was too low all along) to 73 grams!!! Crap, I have no idea how I'm supposed to get all that in but I will do my best. I have to increase my water intake from 48 oz to 64 oz. That's going to be a struggle too but I will do it somehow!
I don't have to go back until Oct. 4th so hopefully by then I will be down at least 50 lbs!! Till next time. . .
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