I can't believe it's here! I went in this morning for my pre-op lab work. Will be on clear liquids until midnight tonight. Check-in at 5:30 am tomorrow and in the OR by 7:30.......OMG!!

Initially, I was going to tell my 11 year old that I was having my gallbladder out. Plus, he's with his dad this last 3 weeks, he would never know, yada, yada, yada. Changed my mind Thursday night. Going to go get him and talk it over with him. I have weight problems. I want a healthier lifestyle so we can do more fun things together. Medically, I can have a relatively simple procedure done to help me lose weight and keep it off! Need to prepare him for the 'food changes' we'll be making!

I'm so thankful for this opportunity. I'm grateful that I have an insurance provider that will pay. My biggest goal is to use this tool to its greatest advantage thus resulting in nothing but success!!! (aka LOSS!)

Until I return to work, I will not have access to a computer. So, good luck to all in your procedures. Race ya to the Loser's Bench!!!

I can't believe it. By this time next week, I'll be through with the operation! The liquid part gets easier every day. At least, I'm no longer dreaming about accidently eating. (really-intense and I would wake up so disappointed in myself). The other great part about liquids is that when I weighed today, I had dropped 20 pounds! Went to Walmart the other night. Bought a 3 lb. weight, a 5 lb. weight, a scale and a pilates workout video. Waiting on the "Sweatin' to the Oldies" DVD from a friend. Didn't have the rowing machine I wanted and hoping to move the Elliptical from a friend's to my house this weekend.

Bought some veggie juice and cream soup for next week. This is truly a rollercoaster. I'm so excited and so scared. Today, I even began to have doubts. I thought, if I can stick to this liquid so well and drop 20 lbs. why can't I just continue without a medical procedure? And then I remembered who i was talking to:  Me. The one who was looking at 300 lbs due to lack of willpower. 

So, hang on............I'm on the downhill slide! 

Every day gets easier on liquids, thank god!  I'm a little worried about being 'loose' this weekend. Being at work offers such a controlled environment. I bring a cooler with my protein shakes, water and jello and just stay there. OK, except for the approximately 913 times a day I have to go pee! But, being at home, where no one can see me--that scares me.

Third day of liquids. I think I've finally turned a corner. Yesterday, I was exhausted! Thank goodness, the surgeon shared with me why 14 days of liquid was needed prior to surgery! Otherwise, I might have been tempted to cheat.

On Tuesday night going home from work, I realized my son was at his dad's and got all excited! Figured I could run thru Arby's. WOW--food has been my focus so long that it's not a subconscious thot in everything I do.

By last night, I went straight home and went to bed. No sugar, no caffeine. I was struggling to keep my eyes open!

But today, it's better. Doing liquids is easier at work in general. I bring in my cooler with the SlimFast, water and jello and just never leave my office. OK...except for the 913 times a day I have to pee!!!

I've decided that the first 42 years of my life was as if I was pregnant. This two weeks pre-op is labor....the most difficult part. But the outcome!!  Like a baby, it will be all worth it and the pain will be forgotten!