Wow!!!  I feel so much better this week.  I just had to share.  Crazy how it works like that.  As quickly as the "empty" feelings came on they left.  Thank goodness.  I am back to myself again.  Good, bad or indifferent-take it or leave it- this is me, the me I like.  I've lost another 2 pounds this week so that's just the "icing" on the cake.  Woohoo!

Until we meet again...

Happy Saturday.  I am now down 50 pounds and half way to my doc's goal.  I feel great.  I am losing inches like crazy.  All is well.

I've been tolerated food well.  I eat a lot of roasted chicken.  Which is fine.  It is tasty and goes down good.  Protein shakes are my staple.  I try to drink 3 a day and would like to add a 4th.  They are easy and they taste good and I know I'm getting the protein I need from them.

I've had a bit of a different week this week.  I think the post WLS hormones may have kicked in.  Things are great and I have nothing to complain about.  But Wednesday night and Thursday I just felt really off.  My DH asked me Wednesday night if I was okay and I told him I was just tired.  I really believed that was all it was.  But when I woke up Thursday and got to work it was worse.  So when my boss asked the same question I knew they were on to something.  I told my boss I was fine and he told me I was not a very good liar.  I told him I was fine and that I wished that was something wrong because that would explain why I was feeling the way I felt.  I told him I was just off for some reason.  Well this got me to thinking about everything I've read about weight loss, fat and hormones.  I've decided that must be what it is.  Of course I thought I'd be the one it didn't happen to, but here we are.  Anyway, I decided to share my thoughts with my DH and he agree that's probably what was going on.  Then I spoke to one of my BFF's (the other secretary who works in the office with me) who is one year out from breast cancer.  She has been battling some of the same feeling "off" issues.  I think she explained it best.  She said she just feels empty.  That is the best way I can describe it; not mad, not angry, not sad- just empty feeling.  So I guess that's the first step is admitting you have a problem. Lol. But guess what, I feel so much better since I talked about it.  So that's why I thought I'd share it here.

This was supposed to be a quick update and got kind of long.  So that's it for now.  Life is good.  Truly it is.

I weighed this morning and I was 193.  Down 45 lbs.  Woo hoo!!  Things are going really well.  I've been sick with a cold this week but other than that I feel great these days.  I see my surgeon of October 1st for another follow up.  I'm hoping to be down 50 by my appointment.  I'm thinking that's a doable goal.  We'll see.

Until later...

8/23/08

Well I am 10 weeks out and down 40 lbs.  I have officially entered "onederland" at 198.  I have lost 40% of my excess weight!!  WOOT!!

I don't really know what to say.  I feel so blessed to have been afforded this opportunity.  I feel wonderful and although each and every day has it's new set of challenges, I think it's the best decision I could've made.

I was never unhappy with "myself" or depressed about my weight pre op.  I just knew it wasn't healthy and of course would've loved to look and feel better.  But I feel like I've been reborn.  Every day is a new beginning.  I feel like no matter what comes my way, it's gonna be okay.

So that's my update.  Maybe I'll post some new pics soon.

I'm on top of the word an lovin' the view.  Hope you'll join me.