4/30/08 297                                                    Me today 10/09/08 216 lbs.

I replied to a post yesterday from a new member who was feeling remorseful and having some discomfort.  After reading what I read, I decided to put it on my blog so I and others will NEVER FORGET:
REMEMBER, the pain of walking in a room when you didn't want to see the look on someones face because you had gained 40 or more lbs since you saw them last,  REMEMBER, the feeling when you were approaching a turnstyle and the absolute fear you wouldn't fit through, REMEMBER, the pills you are taking because of the illnesses caused by obesity, REMEMBER, the downpours of sweat while trying to find an outfit that made you look less fat because you have to go to that event, REMEMBER, the fear when you went to the doctor because after all, how long can you stay at that obese weight before the doctor tells you, you are going to die, REMEMBER all the things that brought you to where you are today, post surgery, bless you, how lucky you are to be a post op.  Bless you your weight is going to start dropping off, bless you, this pain or uncomfort is going to pass and you will run not walk, feel high not sad and be more FREE then you ever thought possible.  BE POSITIVE, Get your head into a positive place and your mind too.  One helps the other, your doctor did his work and now you must do yours.  Keep the big picture in mind it's not where you are at this moment, it is where you are going.  I am a little over four months ahead of you, more then half way to my goal and living on  the softest, brightest and pinkest cloud g-d has ever made.  YOU ARE ON YOUR WAY!  Your post op, be thankful.   Gina  :  ) 

 I am in limbo about the head and body thing.  This surgery took my hunger away and now food is not an issue.  Is being overweight a mental issue for everyone?  Could it be what I have thought my whole life, that I experienced greater hunger then most people?  Is it possible that I could just not physically satiate myself?  I am pondering these ideas.  I think it may be different for everyone.  Only time will tell.  I am staying in touch with my feelings and thoughts.  I just know that now that I am not hungry for the past 3 months I do not miss food or anything like that in fact I feel like I have been let out of food prison, like now I don't think of food all day every day and I can have my mind on so many other things.  Most of my thoughts pre surgery was about food.  No matter what event, it was always attached to what I could eat there.  Hot DAMN I am glad that is gone.  I never want to live like that again.  RNY has changed my entire world by expanding everything else that exsisted and putting food on the shelf where it belonged.  Gina  :  )

 I am in limbo about the head and body thing.  This surgery took my hunger away and now food is not an issue.  Is being overweight a mental issue for everyone?  Could it be what I have thought my whole life, that I experienced greater hunger then most people?  Is it possible that I could just not physically satiate myself?  I am pondering these ideas.  I think it may be different for everyone.  Only time will tell.  I am staying in touch with my feelings and thoughts.  I just know that now that I am not hungry for the past 3 months I do not miss food or anything like that in fact I feel like I have been let out of food prison, like now I don't think of food all day every day and I can have my mind on so many other things.  Most of my thoughts pre surgery was about food.  No matter what event, it was always attached to what I could eat there.  Hot DAMN I am glad that is gone.  I never want to live like that again.  RNY has changed my entire world by expanding everything else that exsisted and putting food on the shelf where it belonged.  Gina  :  )

I had a wonderful interaction with Lisha on our regular post and while I posted this for Lisha who is getting married in two months memories started flooding back for me.  I wanted to save this post here because it brings me JOY!
Here are the lyrics to the song I love but my husband chose as "Our song!"  This explains partly how I fell madly in love with him and how we remain madly in love today 16 years later.
  I wanna be where you are
'Cause you know I won't be far from you
I need you by my side 'cause you make things right
I wanna feel what you feel
The warmth of love that's real
Straight from your heart
Don't wanna be apart
'Cause you make things right

Let the rain fall down above my head
I'll let your love keep me dry
You are the axis that keeps my world turning
You are my earth and sky

I find my strength in your smile
And it makes my life worthwhile
Oh yes it does-it comes from love
You've got my heart and my soul
And together we will grow old
I know it's true
My love's for you

I would lay the world right at your feet
Pull the stars out of the sky
Anything you ask I'll do for you
And your love's the reason why

BTW after my first date with Berto 16 years ago he left the following message on my answering machine:
Hi Gina,
It's the mista mista, who can't resist yah, still licking my lips, from the last time I kissed yah!
So what did I do?  I married him 3 years later.  The VERY best decision of my entire LIFE!  Gina :  )