We had a wonderful vacation!!  The weather was nice and warm, hot on some days (just lovely). I broke my bodybugg.  UGGHHH!!!!  I forgot I had the thing on and we went out on a banana boat and were tipped off into the ocean.  Needless to say the bugg was ruined.  My hubby said that he would buy me another one.

Eating was a challenge.  I always loved to eat on vacation and that is just what I did.  Not excessively at all, just things that I normally would not allow myself to eat.  Because of my last fill I really had to stick with soft foods that were easy to get down. And for me that meant alot of junk.  I did end up gaining 1.5 pounds, and I am soooooooo ok with that.  I know I can take that off plus a couple more this week.  What a wonderful way to think.  I would have been devistated by this before the band.  Now I KNOW I can and will lose weight.  That feels so wonderfully freeing!!!!!!  I AM FREE.  Not thin yet, but free and very happy.  I am not out of control.  I feel very much in control.  If I make a bad choice, I am still in control,  I know that next time I need to make a positive choice to get me back on track.  I love my life now.  I have such hope now.   I am so thankful to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ for giving me the courage to go through with WLS.  For the longest I believed that if I was a strong enough christian that I could pray and believe hard enough and the weight would come off.  It is so good to know that God loves me enough to meet me where I am and still bless me!!!

I am losing much slower that I wanted to.  I think inside we all want the weight off like yesterday......LOL  I know what I have to do, eat right, exercise my butt off, take my supplements and slowly but surely the weight will come off.  I have not weight 197 pounds in about 6 years.  

So my journey continues.  I can't wait to see the next 10 pounds off!!!  

Okay, I had my third fill today,  and it went VERY EASY!!!!!!  What a releif, my fills have been hell on earth.  I am such a baby, and I have had extreme circumstances surrounding my fills.  So I was very greatful for today.  Now on to the CRAZY part.

What made today a crazy day?  First of all my day started off in court this morning.  That went okay.  Stressful yes, but for me whenever I go to court it always is.  Next I was off to the hospital for my fill.  It had to be done under flouro, I was beyond anxious.  Like I said the fill went so smooth it was just heavenly!!  PRAISE GOD!!!!!!

All of the anxiety surrounding both events for me was just overwhelming.  Can you guess what I did?  Yeap, you guessed it.  I ate and ate somemore!!!  I'm not beating myself up or anything like that, because tomorrow will be a new day, and I get to start all over again.  I have to find a better way to cope with stress.  Or at least stop and think about what I am feeling before I react.