I thought, since I haven't started this yet, today is the day. 

I have my surgery tomorrow.  Lapband.  I'm on clear liquids now.  I'm ok, but scared.  Is this the right choice? 

2 weeks ago, at my last appointment with the doctor, I weighed in at 232.  Not incredibly overweight, but 10 lbs heavier than I was when I started this journey to get approved.  I had 10 lbs to lose before they would do the surgery, and only 2 weeks to do it in.  I wanted the surgery before Thanksgiving, but everyone gasps when I tell them I'm having the surgery the DAY BEFORE THANKSGIVING!  Am I masochistic??  NO - just avoiding THOSE 5 LBS!

Anyway, back to the 10 lbs and 2 weeks to lose it in.  I went home the very same night and calobrated by bathroom scales to the exact weight the doctors office showed.  The next day, I watched my salt intake and lost 8 lbs.  I was relieved.  I knew most of it was fluid, but seeing the scales was good.  I could do this!

Today, 2 weeks later and the eve of my surgery, I am at 217 by those same scales.  No cheating.

I have been working on Wii Fit for a minimum of 30 minutes, at least 6 days a week.  It's a nice soft workout, but I break a sweat doing it.  I have been working on my chewing and not drinking during and up to an hour after eating meals. 

What is bothering me is - those 15 lbs in 2 weeks.  Ok, so 8 of it was water weight.  But that is still 7 lbs in 2 weeks.  I know, I know, I know...I've done this before.  I've lost, I've gained, I've lost, I've gained.  I'm just nervous to think, maybe I don't really need this surgery after all.  

But then I bounce back to the frustration with my weight and my overall health, that brought me to this turning point in my life.  I'm going to do it.  I'm going to do it.  I'm going to do it.