I feel like I'm on a roller coaster.  I went a couple of weeks in a stall but more importantly I can't eat anything that doesn't make me feel like I'm going to be sick.  Also my female issues are much worse because I can't take naproxen.  I couldn't get out of bed for two days.  I hope the doctors are able to figure out what I can take in the future.

Well I had surgery on 9/8 and almost two weeks out I'm under 400lbs.  That is a big deal to me.  It took 5 years but I'm here and thanking God that I will continue to heal and lose without complications.

Well my date has been reset for Sept. 8th.  I am praying that this time it happens.  My brother's birthday was Aug. 27th and he would have been 38 years old.  Instead he's been dead 2 1/2 years and we now know that there was so much that could have been done to save his life.  I have put others feelings in front of my life and now I just have to do what's right for me.

As I approach the one year anniversary of my brother's death it gets harder and harder.  I miss him very much and I become angry whenever I think about how he left this world.  I really want to save my own life and get on the path to have this surgery.  I pray that God will lead me and help me to deal with the pain that I continue to feel.  I want to enjoy the thought of my new baby coming into this world.  I just need to concentrate on keeping myself healthy and making this a better place for my children.