Gee wiz, its always a long time coming when I finally get on here isn't it, and there is so much to talk about this time.

Well, well I have lost 128 lbs.  only another 28 lbs. away from my goal to be 1/2 of my former self.  I'm weighing in at 184 here lately, in a size 14/16, Large.  It has been quite a change, I'm able to eat just about anything, just in smaller portions.

My divorce is still non existant since I have virtually no money.  My ex ran off with my kids which has been very very hard.  I've seen them a hand full of times, but always supervised by him, I miss them very very much and will be checking into temporary visitation arrangements here next week hopefully.  I can't afford a lawyer, but when I can I will be doing everything I can to get full custody of my babies.

I moved to IL, after living with Jesse at his place for a few months we decided to get our own place together, things are great, he is really all I have keeping me together, I love him so much, and we have great things planned for the future.  His family has welcomed me with open arms which I cannot thank them enough, my own family, all except my mom has abandoned me, my grandparents even invited my ex to Thanksgiving at their place, but not me, I didn't get a call or anything, pretty shitty, pardon my french, but that's the deal I get right now.

I went from working at Days Inn over in Iowa to another hotel over in Illinois, I'm making more $, but of course I gotta pay rent and all now, so it doesn't really even out.  I had a load of car problems that I'm still paying off.  It all just keeps mounting up.

Thats my life right now in a nut shell.

Wow, its been a long time hasn't it, things have been crazy.  Surgery wise, I am 6 months out now and have lost 102 pounds.  I am at 210, down from 312, in a size 20 (XL) down from a 32/34W (4X).  I have been doing fairly well getting in all I need to, but my hair is really thinning and that really bothers me, I haven't been getting much exercise, been working swing shift, so that just wears me out.  I still can't eat lettuce which bites because I love salad.  I'm having a horrible time finding bras, I am down from a 48C to a 38 AA, it bites, but my man still like them, lol,

On to my personal life, my divorce is slowly moving along, I'm working so I can get out of here faster.  I am still seeing Jesse, we've been together for 7 months now, I love him, but I am really taking things slow with this relationship.

Well, I'll try not to be gone so long, lol

Well I am 9 days post op now, and at 275 lbs.  That is a total of 37lbs down from my highest.  Surgery went much better than expected and I had very little pain.  Eating kinda sucks, I'm sure I'm not getting in everything I need to.

Well, I guess I should be a little more prompt in updating.  I got approved last Friday & I am scheduled for surgery on January 15th.  Things have been crazy here at home so I am just hoping I can get through this. 

I guess I haven't updated in a bit, things are going fast.  I had my psych eval. on the 20th, I'm not psycho, yay!  So they scheduled me with the surgeon this Thursday.  I also had my 2nd sleep study with the CPAP.  I could not handle the CPAP, so I am going to discuss it with Dr. Christopherson and see if I can forgoe that.  Anyways I'll update again after I see the doc on Thurs.