JUNE 8TH;2008; NOTE TO SELF LOOSE 150-175 POUNDSIN THE NEXT YEAR TO TWO.IVE BEEN TO THE DRS TO SEE ABOUT WLS REFFERRAL JUST WEIGHTING NOW TO HEAR BACK AND TAKE MY NEXT STEP.IVE LOOKED THROUGH ALMOST EVERY BEFORE AND AFTER AND FEEL VERY INSPIREDiM STARTING TO BELIEVE THIS COULD BE ME I COULD DO ALL THE THINGS IVE PUT OFF ALL THE THINGS I REALLY WANT TO DO BUT PUSH DOWN SO I DONT HAVE TO LOOK AT THE LOSS ES IFEELI HAVE EVERYDAY.IM DIABETIC THE THINGS I LONG TO DO WITH MY KIDS AND HUSBAND THAT MY WEIGHT ALWAYS IS THERE GETTING IN THE WAY.NOT FITTING, TOO TIRED ,NOT ENOUGH ENERGY,WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE ALTHOUGH I THINK ABOUT THAT ONE I DO IT ANYWAY,I GET OVER HEATED UNCOMFORTABLE MY BACK KNEES AND FEET HURT.I HAVE VERY SPECIAL KIDS THAT WILL NEED ME AROUND I DONT WANT TO DIE FEELING LIKE I NEVER REALLY LIVED OR SHOWED MY KIDS THE ENTHUSIASIUM LIFE SHOULD BE LIVED WITH.THE CONFIDENCE THAT MY VOICE AND THOUGHTS ARE JUST AS VALUED AS ANYONE ELSESTHAT I REALLY MATTER AS A WIFE A MOTHER AND MOST IMPORTANTLY AS A HUMAN BEING THAT I HAVE MANY GIFTS TO BE SHARED WITH THE WORLD AND THEY WILL BE MISSED IF I DONT CONTINUE TO SHARE THEM WITH ALL THAT I LOVE .IM SCARED OF FAILURE ALWAYS IM SCARED OF DYING BUT IVE MADE MY MIND UP THIS IS MY TICKET AND IM READY TO BUY. JULY 17th OHIP approval yeah Ive made alot of new friends on this forum the support is just wonderful                                                                                   WOW I CANT BELIEVE IT PATS ON AUGUST 20TH SURGERY ON SEPT 3 NEW LIFE HERE I COME