It's been awhile since I blogged, so I'm here to check in today. Janie says I need to update my page and think she's right. :-)
I added some new photos today so everyone can see what my lil 19.8 BMI self looks like now. I still can not believe that the lady in those photos is me. Do I feel skinny, ennhhh, not really. It's all mental I guess. Reading everyone's posts on OH prior to surgery prepared me for the mental challenges that were coming, but now that I'm here it's a wierd place for me. I'm a woman of faith and I know that God is in complete control. I started reading a book recently called "God's Guarantee to Heal You"...at first when I saw the title I thought...interesting, but a lil late don't ya think...but knowing it was God's timing I started reading the book and quickly realized that this book was not so much about healing as it was about our faith in God and in his word. The Bible says that that we all have a measure of faith, and to accept salvation, some of us even more, but it's also a fruit of the spirit...and something that should continue to grow in the life of the believer. The stuff I have been through physically has helped me grow in faith, and seeing God move in my life the way he has recently only helped my faith and trust in him to increase. The weight loss journey I have been on has been a scary ride that has had it ups and downs...sometimes it felt like I was soaring through and doing everything right but then there were days where it all seemed so complicated and nothing was going my way. The end seemed so far away. Isn't that so similar to our Chrsitian walk and our faith in God? It's amazing how God draws paralels in our life. I am at a happy place weight wise, this is a weight I can't recall ever being..I was younger than 11 for sure, but I feel amazing. Sure I have my "down" days, but I got on this ride called weight loss surgery knowing full well it wasn't always going to be easy. Some people ask, with all that you've been through would you do it again knowing what you'd face? And to that my answer is still a resounding YES! I make the comparsion to the high blood pressure and the long term effects of that on my heart, the heavy breathing when doing any sort of aerobic ativity, the pain in my feet from the bone spurs and just the hatred for the body I was in, and still I say YES YES AND YES.... I wouldn't trade this for the world. I love my new body and the happier person I have become. My faith in God has increased and my love for him grows with each day. I thank God for allowing me the opportunity to get my life and my health in check and to alive today. I can't wait to see what's next!!!