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I'm Mare. I'm 44 years old. Moved to NC from East Hampton NY. I'm married to the perfect man...perfect for me anyway...since 2000. I have no kiddies...just a kitty. ;O) My nickname, which I've been "blessed" with since day one, is Peanie. (Short for Peanut) I was a preemie at birth and Daddy called me his lil' peanut. Brothers & sister at home were little and just called me Peanie...thus, the lovely nickname. (Thanks, loving family!) So take a seat folks & check your political correctness at the door. It's time to meet Mare.
THE NOZE GROWZ on July 30, 2008 6:15 am
I have noticed that the more weight I lose, the bigger my nose seems to be. I used to have a cute little puggy nose. What happened to my cute little schnozzle?????
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We ALL Need To Watch This! on July 12, 2008 1:33 pm
All I can say is this young lady became more and more engaged...and engaging...as she relayed her message.
PLEASE WATCH!!
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Flying Squirrel on June 17, 2008 4:11 am
This is what I am looking like with all my "slap" hanging already. What is it going to look like in another 100 lbs? Oy!!!!
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46.5!! on June 16, 2008 5:37 am
I just realized that I am no longer Super Morbidly Obese...just Extremely Obese. LMAO My BMI is now 46.5.
From where I came from...that's HUGE!!
That's all.
Bye
heehee
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4 Months Out on June 15, 2008 6:14 am
OK - you guys were right. The scale was moving very slooooooooow and you told me that I'd be losing inches instead 'cuz my body was trying to catch up the the weight loss and...IT DID!!! Whoo Hooooo! Check this out guys!
4 Month Out Measurements
(I'm kinda random so try to follow me here. LOL)
Neck 16" (That stayed the same)
Chest 45" (down 5.5"...YAY but also "uh oh")
Arms 17" (down 1")
Waist 43.5" (down 2.5")
Hips 55" (down 2")
Thighs 24" (down 4")
That's 15" lost this month alone!
My over all loss in inches since 2/12 is as follows...
Neck - total loss of 3"
Chest - total loss of 10.5"
Arms - total loss of 5.5"
Waist - total loss of 11.5"
Hips - total loss of 10"
Thighs - total loss of 12"
My grand total of inches lost since surgery on 2/12/08...drumroll please...
52.5 INCHES!!!
And just so ya know, the scale moved 2 more lbs and I'm at 263 lbs this morning for a total of 73 lbs since surgery and 120 lbs total since February of 2007. So it looks like kicking, beating and cursing at the scale DOES help after all. Who knew?
I think I will start measuring my melon too 'cuz while I'm starting to feel better about myself and my body is shrinking, I want to make sure that my head isn't swelling. So let's add to the list, shall we?
Cranium - 24"
Sheesh! That's a big melon!
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Three Daze Away From 4 Months Out AND... on June 9, 2008 6:08 am
...I am only down 9 lbs so far. I know, I know. "9 lbs is 9 lbs" but WTF??
I really feel like this @#$%$#@ hernia of mine is limiting my ability to exercise to my fullest capacity.
Seriously! I can't do any aerobic stuff, no crunches, sit ups, stationery bike, rowing, etc. And Dr. Harris wants to "wait until I take off a substantial amount of weight" to do the hernia repair. But heck!
I don't know people. WHATEVA!! I am thrilled so far with how I am feeling. I am getting a bit happier about how I'm looking even. I just really wanna see those numbers fall.
I really don't mean to whine all the time. (Big whah whah) So, I'll stop right now! Hee
The weather has been stinkin' hot but I've been planting and working in the yard regardless to work up a good sweat. My insanely gorgeous, amazing, sexy husband has been happy to assist in that endeavor, as well. WHOOHOO!!
OK - I admit it. There IS an upside to the "working at it" part.
WTF?!?!?! on May 27, 2008 5:04 am
It seems the harder I work at this the worse I do. That freakin' scale in there (points toward bathroom) just IS...NOT...MOVING!!!!! Aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrggggghhhh!!!!!!!
I have been working my butt off in the yard/garden, etc. NOTHING! I am pissed off and want to scream and cry and stomp my feet! (Yeah, 'cuz THAT will get it moving.)
I know that every one goes through these dreaded stalls but this is about me, dammit! LOL Oh well. Let's see what the rest of the week shall bring.
Just wanted to share my frustration with you guyz. Hope your holiday weekend was safe and relaxing.
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For Travis - RIP Sweet Boy on May 23, 2008 5:57 am
Chris and I grew up together. A kind and sensitive soul. His beloved first son was tragically taken from his family on May 15th. Another young life taken way too soon.
This is for you, Chris, Ann, Brian and Kady
Travis James Field
January 20, 1988 - May 15, 2008
When tomorrow starts without me,
and I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
All filled with tears for me.
I wish you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.
But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand.
And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye
For all my life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad.
I thought of all the love we shared,
And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I'd graze a kiss upon your cheek
And maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity.
And all I've promised you.
Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day's the same way
There's no longing for the past.
You have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true.
Though there were times
You did some things
You knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven
And now at last you're free.
So won't you come and take my hand
And share my life with me?"
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart.
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Yay Me!! I'm "Pappy-Freeeeee!!" on May 23, 2008 5:23 am
Good morning folks.
After 7 1/2 years of sleeping with my beloved CPAP, I am finally pappy-free! Last night was the first night I was brave enough to even try. For those of you who have had to sleep with a pappy of your own, you know what a big deal this is.
I remember what I felt like before pappy came into my life and, frankly, it scared the bejeezes outta me to even think about sleeping without it. I must've made at least 5 runs to the ER with heart palpitations and shortness of breath.
My insanely gorgeous, wonderful, brilliant husband said he didn't hear a peep out of me all night...not even once. (Wish I could say the same about his side of the bed. LOL)
Today is a happy day.
Oh! Scale finally moved 2 lbs too. *phew* Was starting to worry.
Anyway, have a safe and spectacular weekend friends.
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Three Months Out Today...and Happy Birthday To Me on May 12, 2008 6:04 am
Three months out. Feeling great. Energy level is throught he roof. THAT is most exciting for me. I love wanting to be on the go all the time, I just wish there was more to do. I'm thinking about finding a job, atleast part time for now, to get back out there interfacing, ya know? I miss working with people and now that my confidence is growing again I'm ready.
The scale said 275 yesterday morning. That's just 16 lbs over the past month. Just? Did I say that? (Total of 61 lbs since surgery on 2/12...108 lbs total since Feb. of last year.) I guess I was expecting to lose at a more rapid pace but I AM LOSING and THAT is the point.
I have been toying with sleeping without my pappy. (CPAP) I took a nap without it...no problem. I snoozed yesterday morning from 4:00 am to 6:00 am without it. It's more of a mental issue than a physical one at this point. I remember how I felt before I used my pappy. Not good! But I am getting braver. I also noticed that I have to tighted the straps on the headgear too. I guess my large "melon-esque" cranium has also been shrinking in the process. Hee
I am posting my new measurements. Missed my hip measurement last month. Oh well.
Here goes:
Neck 16" down 3" total
Chest 50.5" down 5" total
Waist 46" down 9" total
Hips 57" down 8" total
Arms 18" down 4.5" total
Thighs 28" down 8" total
That's a grand total of 37.5" down since surgery.
And today is my birthday! Whoop! 44 years old, baby! And the last birthday I will ever spend being fat!
NOW GIMME CAKE, DAMMIT!!
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Are These Mine??? on April 28, 2008 10:15 am
I had to buy some new bras. I bought 3 pretty ones in 3 different sizes. A black, a white and a pink. They are real supportive and comfy but here's the best thing.
I am just noticing that my "girlz" are now front and center, locked and loaded! No more flopping to my sides because my huge belly was in the way. Not just with the bra...naked too! I am excited about this since I don't have much of a rack to begin with. My breasts are probably the only place that didn't swell with the rest of me. It's nice to see that, so far, they have decided to stay. They may be hanging a bit lower than I'd like but I can deal with it. My incredibly gorgeous, sexy, brilliant husband certainly doesn't disapprove.
Thank you, God, for blessing me in so many ways.
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Over The "CENTURY" Milestone on April 25, 2008 8:30 am
Can I get a "WHOOP! WHOOP!"
Yup! That's right! You heard it here first, folks! OK...NC message board first, THEN here! (You guys are so critical!)
Reached that milestone 2 daze ago. Scale has since stopped as if to say "OK. That's all you get. Now go away." But I will not go. No sir! I'm gonna stay right here to see what else is in store.
I'm just about 10 weeks post op. I'm feeling generally well. I do have an occaisional phanton pain in my lower abdomen that doubles me over sometimes? Gas? Maybe. Something I ate? Perhaps. But awfully uncomfortable, for sure. Thankfully it doesn't last too long and I am out and about in my usual fashion.
My PCP has started me on Celebrex for my arthritis. Maybe it's a side effect from that. The Celebrex really does seem to help and it's just been over a week now. I still need my hydrocodone on a daily basis but anticipate a day when I shall need neither. I can't wait for that day.
Today is Friday and the weekend is creepin' up on us. Hope it's a good one.
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Told Ya I'b Be Back on April 19, 2008 10:40 am
Here are my measurements as of today...a week past 2 months out.
Neck 16 .5" 2.5" loss total since 2/12
Arms 20" 2.5" total loss since 2/12
Chest 51.5" 4" total loss since 2/12
Waist 47" 8" total loss since 2/12
Thighs 29" 7" total loss since 2/12
That's a grand total of...drumroll please...
24" total loss since my glorious RNY! Two feet of flubber!
I LOVE MY RNY!!!
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What's In A Name? on April 18, 2008 5:48 am
I read on the message board sometimes that people have names for their pouch. I was calling mine "Gretta" after a crazy neighbor lady that lived near us in NY. She'd make all kinds of strange noises.(Actually we called her "Greasy Gretta." But that was just mean and uncalled for and now I'm mature and don't play like that no more, so there! Nah nah nah nah nah!!)
Anyway, with much consideration the past few daze I have decided to change Gretta's name to Dory. Yup, THAT Dory. And here's why, my friends. I'm sure you've seen Finding Nemo, right? Remember the scene where Dory was trying to communicate with the whale? Went something like this:
"OOOOOOOooooooooooooaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAA!!" Followed by: "Weeee are tryyyying toooo fiiiind hiiiis sooooon." But my pouch didn't say all that, just first part. Hee.
So there you have it, folks. Another meaningful post from yours truly.
Enjoy the weekend folks!
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Greetings, My Adoring Fanz on April 17, 2008 6:05 am
Pardon my absence the past, oh, 10 daze or so. Lots a s*** going on...all good. Got some men here painting main part of house. My brother-in-law and his wife were visiting for a few daze and had me runnin' "Ooo Eee Ooh Eee Ooo!" That was especially good 'cuz that wicked scale made quite a jump, I gotta tell ya.
I have also passed my 2 month out date and posted pics. (Forgot to do measurements. Will do this weekend though.) But what I was getting at is this:
I am now down to 285 lbs as of this morning. WHOOP!! That's 51 lbs since surgery and a grand total of 98 lbs since last year at this time. I am 2 stinking lbs away from 100 bs gone forever!! Praise God!!
Although I have noticed my body changing a bit last month the scale said just 15 lbs, which is great, I guess, but I was a teensy bit disappointed. I feared that I had fallen from grace. But I am really quite excited again. I did notice that while I definately ate more when company was here, it jumpstarted the weight loss once again.
I have noticed, too, that the "girlz" have decided to take a trip south, if you know what I mean. I'm not exactly "blessed" in that department to begin with so that's a little disheartening. Bra sliding off my shoulders. Quite annoying. But it's all part of the game, right? If they get any lower I can always toss 'em over my shoulders and wrap 'em around my neck for a great scarf or shawl on a brisk, blustery morn. Sheesh!
I am feeling bones again too. Shoulders, collar, hips, etc. Who knew? My face even feels "bonier" when I lather it up in the shower. I can feel...and see...every contour of it where it was so distorted before. I look back at where I have come from since last year and how great I am feeling now and it's bizarre but it just doesn't seem real to me that I lived that way for so long. That was my reality then. But somehow it just doesn't seem possible now. Does that make sense?
I used to see myself in the mirror, and even though I weighed close to 400 lbs, I'd think "I look nice today." But in reality, that same person, in a photograph, was unrecognizable to me. Like it was someone else entirely. I was looking at a stranger and thinking "Wow! How'd she get like that? Why did she let that happen to herself?" I still don't have the answer.
It's really an incredible journey. I am so blessed to have this wonderful tool to help me achieve my weight loss goal. I have energy like crazy. I'm learning still. It's a total change of body/mind/lifestyle, but a wonderful one. I would change nothing. My husband, friends and family are quite excited. My mom is sooooo excited! It will give me great pleasure for her to see me happy and healthy once again before her time to depart this world for the next. I used to get pissed at her for commenting on my weight. I know she did it because she loves me and was concerned. I must remember to apologize to her for getting ugly when she would mention it.
So, peeps, that's my rambling for today. I'll try to remember to measure this weekend when my gorgeous husband is home to do it for me. Have a splendid weekend.
(To be continued...)
Sorry - I know this picture is random and has nothing to do with the price of tomatoes but I thought it was too cute not to share.
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Ok - NOW I see it!! on April 7, 2008 5:42 am
I have been told by just about everyone what a difference they can see in my appearance and I just wasn't seeing it.
Well, it's official. I now see it. I was walking into Walmart to other day (to buy some underwear that actually fit!) and caught a glimpse of my reflection in the doors. Wow! Is that me? I almost stepped out from behind my cart to get a closer look when the automatic doors zipped open.
Oh well. I'm pretty sure it was me. There was no one else near me...I looked.
Just wanted to share. Got a 1:00 appointment with Dr. H today. Let's see how he thinks I'm doing. It's been 7 weeks and I'm down 42 lbs since surgery. (89 lbs down since my highest weight - eeeeek!!) Oh yeah...one more thing...
I LOVE MY RNY!!!!!
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No More BOZO Feet on April 1, 2008 5:46 am
Pssst! Hey! Know what?
I can't wear any of my WW slip-on shoes anymore. They are sliding off my oh-so-slender feet as I scamper to and fro. Gotta stick to my lace-up shoes...which is fine since I can actually bend over and tie them without hyperventilating now.
Aaaah, it's the little things.
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Yahoooooooo!! (And a Yucky Pooey) on March 26, 2008 8:17 am
I have broken that cursed stall and have finally crossed the threshold of the 300 lb mark. Whoop!! I mean, I know I'm still "fluffy" but I'm making progress.
It actually happened yesterday but I have been outta commission for a few daze. Have a wicked stomach virus that has kept me up doubled over in agony the past 4 nights. Like clockwork - 1:00 am the agony begins.
Yup, just what I need 6 weeks post op. I'm also dehydrated. Went to the doctor yesterday. Kept me there on IV for 4 hours to get some fluids into me.
As much as I am trying to do everything the right way, it's still difficult to get in all the fluids & protein required when you have an automatic gag reflex...due to virus, I hope. But today's a new day and I am feeling a bit better. Concentrating on my fluids today. Won't be able to get out there and walk. Slightest movement is torture to my belly. Oh yeah, I seem to have a "disgruntled" hernia as a result of my new lifestyle that includes actual activity.
*sigh*
I didn't know getting healthy would make me feel like shit! Hee
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Sssssshhhhh... on March 23, 2008 3:33 pm
This is between us and it goes no further. I am dangerously close to being in the 200's for the first time in, ooooh, 5 years or so. I have been lingering about 2 lbs away for the past few daze and, frankly, it's starting to piss me off.
But patience is a virtue, right? Sadly, I have no virtues. I am just anxious to post my breakthrough on the message boards. Oh well...
I hope you all had a wonderful Easter holiday surrounded by the peeps you love.
By the way...don't let all that sugarly sweetness fool you!
I Have Urkel Undies!! on March 18, 2008 12:36 pm
OMG! My bloomers are getting so big I got 'em hiked up below my boobage! My loving husband says "It's like a giant thong." Ummm...thanks love. But seriously? It's true. Hee
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OK - Where's my ass? It was right here a minute... on March 17, 2008 1:57 pm
I bought some clothes from Roaman's a few weeks ago. Some exercise pants, (Yeah - I said exercise!) a few t-shirts and a sweatshirt...ALL 2 sizes smaller than I would normally order. I got them, took them out of the packages, washed them and put them away for "later, when they fit."
Well, I was curious this morning and tried the pants on and...
They fit!
I don't mean that I got them up and every bulge & crevice is visible. No - they fit-fit. I am so excited that I want to buy more in every color but I don't anticipate being this size for long. No sir! I see smaller sizes in my future...and NOT from specialty catalogs either. Weeeeeeee
PS - I forgot to mention that the sweats have a drawstring, which normally I would yank outta there 'cuz I don't need any extra added "bulk" in the tummy area. Am I right ladies? But I left it in 'cuz I'll be needing that sucka to hold those babies up soon. Whoop!!
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Encountering A Stranger In Frozen Foods on March 13, 2008 8:41 am
Was shopping in Food Lion for a few things yesterday. While walking through the frozen section toward my SF ice pops I was caught off-guard by my reflection in the doors. I could notice the change in my shape. Not as round as a few weeks ago. Not as jiggly. I was actually so entranced with watching myself walk I cruised right by my ice pops.
Been a long time since I haven't hated my reflection.
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Added a "note" to my ticker on March 10, 2008 7:00 am
I added a note to my ticker. For those of you who may ask "Why? Why did she add a note to her ticker?" I will tell you why...but not now.
Just kidding. I'll tell you now. hee
I added the note to my ticker because it was pointed out at lunch yesterday (not to me directly but in general conversation)that it may be misleading to someone who is researching or just reading the profiles, etc. that it appears to them that some peeps have lost "X" amount of weight ALL from surgery date.
Since it was never my intention to mislead anyone, I do see her point. It is a bit misleading. So, to clear the air on that, the note is as follows:
First visit with surgeon 2/07 - 383lbs
Day of surgery 2/08 - 336lbs
I do, however, feel that I should absolutely take credit for the weight I did lose on my own since I fought very hard to get to the weight my doctor wanted me at for surgery. It was a whole year of fighting...not just my weight...to get to where I am. It still deserves to be recognized.
SO THERE!
(just kidding)
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New Measurements - Tomorrow's 4 weeks post-op on March 10, 2008 6:50 am
Waist - 49.5" down 5.5 "
Hips - 61.5' down 3.5"
Thighs - 33" down 3"
Arms - 20" down 2.5"
Chest - 54" down 1.5" (Hope that's all I lose there. Yikes!)
Neck - 18" down 1"
SO there it is, folks! I guess it's working after all.
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Hubby's Compliment...I guess... on March 10, 2008 6:42 am
I was wearing a baggy sweatshirt & sweat pants doing my chores Saturday and Michael was chuckling at me.
"What's so funny?"
He said "You look like a puppy when they're going through that awkward stage and their body's not sure what's going on and they look sorta...well... goofy."
We both started laughing. I guess he thought I looked cute but he coulda just said that! LOL
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Missed my 3 week post-op update. Get over it! on March 7, 2008 7:34 am
Many little changes are coming to light every day. (26 lbs down since surgery) I posted on my blog about a few at 2 weeks out. Here's some of my latest startling revelations. (Ok, maybe not startling to you...)
*I no longer ride the parking lot "carousel" looking for that ideal parking spot that's as close to the door as I can possibly get. I'm happy about parking far away and enjoying how I feel while walking. No panting and puffing. (I also walk my cart back to the corral instead of being lazy & leaving it in front of the car. hee)
*The seat belt in my car fits better. I don't have to extended it to it's maximum length in order to fasten it around me.
*I washed & vaccuumed out my car yesterday without breaking a sweat.
*I can change the bed sheets without killing myself!
*I can walk around Lowes (I love Lowes) forever without feeling like I need to find somewhere to sit.
My BFF Tina came to visit from NY this past weekend. Here are things she said she noticed.
*My face is slimmer.
*I look shorter. What the...? (Is that even possible??)
*I don't say "I'll wait here." while she runs into CVS. I go with her.
* I'm not out of breath all the time.
*She's not scared for me anymore.
I guess of all the WOW moments so far, the most significant WOW just might be the realization that this disease of obesity didn't just effect me and my life, but also the lives of all the people who love and care for me. Little by little I was getting more restricted. The pain was increasing. They were fearful every day of what might happen next.
At one point Tina was crying...happy tears...that I am getting well and feeling great. I had no idea what this was doing to my family & friends...to watch me kill myself. To that, I say WOW!!
This has been a real trip so far. Still getting used to my new tummy. She certainly isn't shy about letting me know I've pissed her off! I'll try to keep her happy. She can really make life miserable.
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Ponderings...2 weeks post-op on February 26, 2008 7:29 am
OK - 2 weeks out...almost to the minute. Here's a few things I have noticed so far..."mimi-wows" if you will:
*Most importantly, I am wearing my engagement ring again. I couldn't for the past 2 years due to my fat little, sausage-like fingers. Way too tight next to wedding band, so that's wonderful!!
*My face already looks a bit different - no puffy, bloatiness.
*My neck looks longer too - more slender.
*I can almost see my feet when I look down...almost.
*My towel almost closes around me after a shower.
*I can no longer rest my coffee cup atop my tummy when I sit on the couch to watch the morning news. It's not there!
*I can walk almost a mile without having to stop & rest ever 20 steps or so to catch my breath.
*I can go up the stairs a bit easier without feeling like I'm gonna pull the handrail off the wall.
*Tying my shoes isn't as difficult.
*I fit behind the steering wheel without my belly pressed against it.
These are just a few things that come to mind this morning. I may get back to you later if I notice anything else.
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My Measurements Pre-op - but after already losing 50... on February 24, 2008 11:54 am
**As of 2/10/08**
Neck - 19"
Chest - 55.5"
Arms - 22.5"
Waist - 55"
Hips - 65"
Thighs - 36"
Some of that has changed already but I'm only gonna post measurements once a month...if I remember.
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*Thought For Today* on February 24, 2008 6:07 am
EGGS ARE EVIL!!!!!
If an egg approaches you and pretends to be your friend and says "Eat me. I am your friend. I am a sweet and adorable little eggie. I am very yummy & so good for you. Your new tummy will just LOVE me to itty bitty pieces."
Don't believe him! Eggs are liars!! One said that very thing to me yesterday & I had to learn the hard way...
EGGS CANNOT BE TRUSTED!
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My Story I was always a very thin, petite child and adolescent. Very athletic. Gymnastics and tennis were my passions. Growing up in my home was a very health-conscious setting. No sugary cereals...no fatty foods...no soda, chips, any of that. Lots of fruits and veggies...and I loved them! The onset of my weight gain took place at approximately 20 years old. That is when I met my 1st husband...my Italian husband. (RIP Frankie Boy) Oh boy! Didn't that family love to cook...and eat! It opened up a whole new world of exciting flavors I've only read about! (kidding) But you get the picture. Every single thing we did as a family revolved around food. And I mean lots of food! You couldn't just sit down to have a cup of coffee without several types of pastries, pies, cakes, etc. layed out in front of you. (Tiramisu - the most delectible of all the cursed sweets!) I was a willing participant in my new unhealthy lifestyle, although I didn't know at the time that this body is the price I would eventually pay.
Needless to say, once I was living on my own and learning to cook, all those saucy, cheesy, yummy foods are what I came to love...and loved cooking. (I don't want this to sound like I am blaming him - just so we have that straight. I was my own worst enemy.) I was quite a good cook, I found, and soon took a job as a cook for 15 years. "Oh my! Mucho Big Mistake!"
All cooks have to sample their "creations" to be sure they are pleasing to the pallate. (They were! hee)
So from there, over the 15 years of "sampling" and not thinking about those calories adding up, with a taste here and a nibble there, I set in motion my own collision course with disaster. (my health/body/life)
I was always one of those people who thought that WLS was a desperate and dangerous action. But that was when I was still feeling good despite my obesity. Now that I am over 40 - "40 and failing" they say - all those lovely comorbidities are setting in. High BP, sleep apnea, arthritis...just for starters, so far. I now look at WLS in a whole new light. For me, the risks of the surgery are far less than the risk of continuing to live like this any longer. I want my life/health/body back, and DAMMIT! I deserve it!
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