I am so excited, and scared, and excited, and scared...okay you get the picture. I am drinking my protein liquids and in my head I am starving to death trying to get through this pre=op clear liquid phase.

Tried to watch t.v. ---nope every commercial has food. Tried to read a magazine---nope FOOD again on every other page. I keep going to the frig opening up the door and just looking inside and I swear I am about to grab a grape or a carrot or something and just stuff it in my mouth and run away before anyone takes it away from me. Okay not really... but it is a  fantasy that keeps replaying in my head.

I sure hope this feeling is going to go away after the surgery...I didn't have a "last supper" so now I am regretting it big time. I coulda , shoulda and  still want to!

I am in total amazement that some folks could do this clear liquid thing pre surgery for a week or more... and survive.